TIRED OF EVERYTHING

im on diet.
im so sick of FRUITS, PLAIN SOUP, WATER, MILK, YOGURT.
emotions is taking over me.


hate school.
hate project.
hate to stop myself from going out because of project.
hate to force myself to do project.
hate to wake up early for project.

hate to have flu.
hate to have cough.
hate to have period.

hate to be hungry.
hate to smell sweets stuff.
hate to see people eat.
hate to work out.

hate to transfer from mrt to bus or bus to mrt. or bus to bus.
hate to pay when taking cab.
hate to stuck in heavy rain n cab is no where to be found.

hate it that e oct mth is not over yet.
hate it when there is more receipt than money in my wallet.
hate some of my friends that cares about themselves.

hate it when e library's aircon is so cold.
hate it when i smell smoker's toxic air.

hate it rain when im playing tennis with my friends.
hate wet shoes.
hate e management office for not unlocking e tennis court when i need to use.
hate community center for not having online booking for badminton court.

lol.
thats about it.
feels good.
haha.

byebye
sick day.

Wake me up

hihi.

this few days im so lazy in school.
i drag myself almost everyday to school.
realli hate going to school now.
i guess wat siti say is right.. sch holiday should be longer..
so long that we r sick of it.. n want to go school n study.
then we will produce good work.
but i guess life is too short for us to waste time like that.
sigh.
struggling to force myself to do my project. seriously.
haha

last weekend was quite fun.
friday i played badminton with my cousins n my brother.
play till i got muscle cramSsss all over... :( zzz

sat i went to meet up with skye in e evening at west coast park to catch up.
nice weather.. :) wanted to do our project,
but in e end..we were shopping for online clothes..
haha but i enjoyed myself..
but i think i will die when i know how much i spent in e online shop. i think over $150 already.
shit man. im so gonna be dead.

then sunday is about me n linna.
aww..haha..
she pick me up n we went far east to shop for HER clothes.
it was a torture.. because i didnt buy due to e online shopping i did e day before. sigh.
after that we had lunch n continue to shop.. we were at fareast e whole day..zzzzz
im feel sad for e guys that need to accompany their gf to shop for clothes.
i totally understand how you feel. lol.
GIRLS STOP ASKING UR BF TO SHOP WITH YOU! GIVE HIM A BREAK!
hahaha..
anyways wanted to catch a movie but too late, n there is not much movie to watch too.
so after that we went to play badminton at bt timah cc. near my hs.
super funny. we couldnt stop laughing during e game, then very xing ku when playing..
haha. realli funny then took pictures too.
then we chill at e hawker centre nearby waiting for her bf's call.
chit chat..laugh..gossip...haha. =p

n today...MONDAY BLUES..
zzzzzzzzzz

hope tml will be a better day.
thats all i guess. i will upload e photos of me n linna soon!
stay tune!
haha.

i have alot of flaws.
my low self esteem is taking over me again..
just hoping time can heal everything.

byebye
lazy day

Nothing Last Forever

Hello!
hmm. very tired this week!!
was sick. had flu and sore throat.
All because of the IMH JOB!!.
haha i helped my friend in a event that she is working on..
she needs help, so me and yongliang went to help her.
SAI GANG all e way.. preparing e food..paste papers...bring boxes of water here and there..
prepare rooms..on top of that..we are in high heels..
omg..blister all e way..
FAINT!
perspire every single day..every single min. haha
but it was fun working together with ur friends.
haha we laughed alot. enjoyed it!!

IMH wasnt that bad..sometime they will approach u..wanna shake hand with u n stuff..
but i think is ok la.. just abit scary.
hahaha.
and we had promised linna to help her on a event that is this coming sun and mon too.
so i will need to skip sch on e first day!.
never mind. i predict there will be drama on teachers..
i dont wanna see drama too. Sick of it.

hmm.. this holiday was useless..did nothing productive.
but very fun.. i went prawning..celebrate my birthday..F1 race..work..shop..went dinner with my family.. aww..
i had enough fun. so im gonna work hard for e next project.
hahaa YooHoo..~!!

im not sure of wat im doing now..
im afraid of wat people will think..
i guess i will wait a little longer..
and get more confident..
before i move on..

people change.. people gets bored of old stuff..
thats just the way it goes..
it's e end and so get over it.
we shall cherish the people and things around us..
before it leave us again...

byebye
sleepy day

CRAZY NIGHT

omgomgomgomg!!
i went dbl O on tue.
it was fun..
drank alot..
super high..
play games..
and....
and...
one more thing..
that im not gonna tell u ...
haha!!
but i enjoy myself with my gfs celebrating with me. im realli happi
:D

is my first time being drunk.
and is not as bad as i think it would be.
at least im not like stacy. haha!!
ping ping pong pong. :x

being drunk is like..
u know wat u doing somehow..
and you know wat is happening..
but everything is moving..
like..side to side. LOL
AND IT GIVES U HEADACHE.
then u dont have strength!? haha
to walk properly..
but i just know that i can forget everything like being awkward and stuff..
and just enjoy myself.
thats y im so high.
but i remember i play pool before we left. haha! :)
i was ok when we were leaving but when i got home on my bed i cant sleep at all,
i dont really remember how i feel
but all i know is.. i roll back n fore on my bed i just keep rolling.
i think i feel realli uncomfortable.
hope someone is there to accompany me. but is ok.
i still get to sleep in e end like 8 plus?

BUT!!
after that day when i realli wake up n think about it.
i can see flashes of ugly side of me in e club in my mind.
O.M.G
faint.
n some of my pictures they took
OMG. FAINT.
DAMN UGLY TO E MAX!!.
hahahaha.
OMG.
i dont know wat to say other than OMG..
hahah.
i will never let it happen again.
faint.

i just wishes i can forget about this quickly, and only remember e good stuff.
haha!.
but i realli thanks my gfs who is there for me when im tipsy and celebrate with me..
even though some of them had some problem at home and their bf and stuff....lol
thanks a million!
and some of e guys that help me to be conscious again!
LOL

overall i had fun. :)
thanks ppl.
love u lots!
cheers!

suppose to celebrate my birthday with my sec sch friends but..
i dont know all of them is busy and all other excuse.
i dont know wat to say. forget it.

byebye
suppressing day

PARTY TIME!!!! YOOHOO~!!

HELLO PEOPLE!!.
ATTENTION PLZ:
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!.
omgomgomgomg!!!
hahahaha.
super fast!! time flies!!!

next wed is my birthday!!.
i havent really plan, but with e help of my friends i have a party!
hahah!.
monday im going out with my poly friends for dinner,
coz siti is not free on wed. hari raya for her.

then wed im going to have dinner and club at double o with my gfs and alot of other people!!
i hope its gonna be a great night.
i hope i will be super high and enjoy my day.
yea. MY day.
haha.

then tue? maybe with my sec sch friend.
but havent realli decide where to go yet. they are kinda busy i guess.
im realli excited now.
i didnt know it is next wed until this wed.

i went my friend's birthday chalet this weekdays.
it was fun. we played cards and games and play alot alot of badminton!. hahaha.
half my body aching after e chalet. then we gossip quite alot too.
get to know more ppl. :) yea~

then this weekends i went out with yongliang, linna, meiyu and kc for dinner
chill out abit..
gossip abit..
haha. it was nice to meet up with them.
after dinner, yongliang have to go meet up with e guys
so we girls went to watch midnight movie: mamamia. not bad.
then we were tired after e movie so we went home instead of meeting e guys.

yesterday night i went to watch e F1 race with my family..
near my bro office place at one raffles link.
IS CRAZY!! DAMN COOL!! LOVE LOVE IT!.
hahaha. they actually had a black sheet to block us from seeing e race,
but when e race start!! e sound is crazy!! and everyone go crazy and rip of e black sheet down!
haha and e people beside us use nail clipper to cut of e sheet. omg.
IS CRAZY. but thanks to them we get to see e race. omg.
e atmosphere were super good. e sound and e race. omg.
we were standing near e turn so e they will slow down abit and we can see racer.
damn cool. e kart are all damn polished, damn handsome.
OMG. but we only watched while like, 20 mins?
then we went to eat bak kut teh.

then after that i went to meet up with violet, stacy, phan they all
to watch another movie call my best friend's girl.
funny show, but is quite similar to e movie, The Hitch.

thats all i guess. suppose to go ah hui hs to play cards or mahjong. but i think got enough people.
so i decided to stay at home. coz is at hougang, quite far.
today im gonna go my aunt place to watch F1 and have a little party.
haha but..
super sad. Alonso is out. SOB!.
never mind. sigh.

tml im going out with meiyu to shop abit then meet up with siti and joycelyn.
i love every single day these two weeks!
see ya on my birthday people!!
IS CRAZY!! HAHA.

byebye
crazy day

Hard to get.

hello people!!
my advance driving is on thur!! omg.
scared. havent study yet.

this week is a boring week.
nothing much happen.
slowly building up my men's online shop.
havent choose a name yet. thought of some but it sound too gay-ish.
hahaha.
other then that. i made tiramisu today.
IS A FAILURE!!
faint.
gonna try again tml!.
idiot.

anyway some of my gfs ask me whether i wanna go clubbing tml.
i feel like.. but most of e girls i dont realli know.
so im afraid i would be extra or something.
i think i have to be almost drunk to meet them.
hahah! then maybe i could care less and enjoy more.
i realli wanna go clubbing!!
yoohoo!

my friends is having a chalet next week.
ITS PARTY TIME!!
haha so long never meet up with my gfs.
miss them lots!!
haha. there is mahjong, blackjack, wed maybe clubbing its ladies night!!
woohoo!.
is that heaven?! hahaha
crazy girl.

OMG.
tml is result day.
i was realli excited about it at first, until my last presentation.
which crash me like shit.
omg. faint.
i dont want to see my result.
plus my brother got 3.75.
shit. im lost.
I HATE HIM. *abit
hahaha
is ok. next sem im gonna go crazy.
:)

i really interested in u.
but i dont get the replies and reaction i wan from you.
im disappointed. :(
is ok. i guess u r not e one.
lets hope someone will REPLACE U FAST!!
idiot.

bye bye
clubber-lious

I NEED A MAN

omg.
faint.
i am working on my men's online shop..
and i am worried about the size and stuff. god~
and some of the style. im not sure will guys buy..
faint. i know i can sell e acc. but tshirt~.. i need help.
I NEED A MAN!! faint.

but i will work on it.
toking to some of my guys friends just makes me lose confident in this shop.
i dont know y. thinking of my guys friends just destroy me!!.
god. i need to stay firm.
watever it is.. im gonna make this happen.
maybe it wouldnt work out in e end, but at least i tried wat i wanna do.
yea. im not gonna care wat people thing.
even if i didnt earn much *which im not gonna let that happen.*
i dont care. at least i tried. yea.

alright. i think i can continue working on it.
STAY FIRM. FIND SOLUTION.

other then that. my F1 job is coming up.
but before that i need to go training for one day at some hotel to do BANQUET!!.
YUCKS ..zzz
so troublesome. just to earn that few dollars.
i wanted to quit actually but i didnt.. when i heard we will be serving e VIP..
VIP like...DAVID BECKHAM. SERIOUSLY!!.
SERIOUS VIPssSS!!!
at first when e person say we will see vip that we only see on TV.
i thought is some locals celebrities or some rich business ppl. so i didnt realli care
but it shocked me when i heard DAVID BECKHAM.
i means its not only DB there is still other famous people which i cant remember e names.
im excited!! but that is of course i get to serve at that area.
coz we will be split into the different VIP area.
there are total of 3 VIP area.
i will of course i get to see e racing cars and stuff.
thats y i agree to go for e training.
hope i can handle well during training.
AND I THINK I CAN. hahaha.

and im gonna spend my pay on shopping. B.T.H already.
its been a long time since i shop. saw alot of clothes online. im gonna grab them ALL.

Soo.. cheers to F1 job where i get to see people i dont usually see..
and.. cheers for my oncoming online shopS!
and...cheers to my new closet!!

i think is time to go clubbing too. hearts.

hoho! :x

byebye
super excited