HAPPY EVERYDAY

hello!! im back.
back from e holidays and all e parties!!!
hahaha.

i went vietnam! had fun! spend time with my family and experience different culture and learn more about e historic stories from vietnam. really cool. :)
and e crowd there is crazy!!!! coz its christmas and in addition, they won singapore in soccer. so the crowds is crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously!
i had phobia crossing e road but is phobia is over. LOL.
I HAD TO FORCE MY WAY THROUGH THE THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS OF MOTOR BIC. AND CARS. faint.
but i did it and im back! haha for e better!!

then when im back is all about parties. haha.
i organise my class xmas chalet party..and is crazy again!!. lol
i hope everyone had fun..coz i did. haha. ALOTS OF BOOST!
lol. i was drunk too early. lol. we decorated e place..there was food..boost..handsome and pretty girls.. everyone brought a present lol.. is was really fun.
it was our first gathering? ya.. so sad right? haha but im glad we had this party, bring us closer together! :)

then the next day i went to violet's party haha. at some pubs. last min changes i think.. im not sure y..but it was not bad.. haha more boost, poppers,christmas hat, hokkaine songs? LOL
we were at e pub my course mate use to work in!! but she quit and join another pub. but it was so coincident right?! of all e pubs.. haha.
but after that im went home, and e rest went for supper. i was tired from e party last night. haha.

then on christmas day i celebrated with my family. omg.
home sweet home. is a really lay back classic christmas party.
we had dinner at e balcony with e tv showing our vietnam trip pics.
and christmas songs playing at the background with good food.
and all my cousins and aunties around.
omg. i feel so lucky haha. :)

didnt celebrate with my sec sch friends.. feels weird.. but i guess is their best christmas party without us. HAHA. im glad i had my long lost pri sch friends and poly friends again.

now all e parties is over is time to settle down and continue to study hard!!
hahaha. thats all i guess?
cheers! i hope u enjoyed urself!

byebye!
fresh day

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ART ART n ART

hello!!
its been a long time since i blog.
quite alot of things happen.
first is my project presentation. it goes well for me. :)
now i need to work on n go to e next step. e more detailed design.
which i havent start yet omg. i wasted like more than 3 days already. doing nothing in school.
just going to library to watch movies. LOL
my gfs and i just cannot concentrate doing. sigh.
and this friday i need to come out with my 2000 words essay. which i havent started yet.
omg
i think i need to start writing tml, or else im DEAD.
haha.

recently its been a art inspired period??
haha. last friday, me and michele decide to go SAM(Singapore Art Museum) and red dot.
we went to see e exhibition. e paintings...and the sculptures.
a mixture of feeling when we look at e art pieces..
cool, artistic, expressive, scary, weird, blur, eery, amazed.
haha ya. some artists are really deep. like in their own dream land.
i dont know. very deep. dont understand. LOL
some are realli cool. you realli can understand and feel it.
ya.

and i went to Art Bienalle today with my poly friends.skye kenneth and michele.
we went to e one near city hall.
hmm.. its more of a big scale art exhibition and alot of video installation.
some art pieces are realli cool, like e 3D art where you can see e art pieces moving! but its actually a concave art pieces by itself..but as you move, it can actually see e thing moving.
super cool. haha.
but i dont realli like e video installation. very chim, deep thoughts needed. and some are super emo kind.
ya.

i was depressed actually and felt emo after e whole thing.
but i m better now.
everytime after going through the museum, im always very tired.
i guess you need to use alot of ur brain to think and interperate the drawing.
ya. thats y its very tiring. haha
overall its nice to visit museum, give urself more exposure towards art and make you think more. hahaha
you should go sometime!!

i went east coast park last friday with e same grp of friends
to roller blade, chill, relax and play at e beach.
quite fun. LOL we played games by e beach, run alot and wrestle alot. lol!
cool!! :) love it!

I HATE LEROY, SPOIL MY DAY YESTERDAY. JUST BECAUSE OF MY NICK!.
i just feel that im not e shallow one, but you.
you went to see some music concert doesnt mean you know everything.
and i feel that you, going to that concert has nothing to do with my nick.
AI GONG NAI. plz, dont just shoot at me for nothing.. going to that concert is NOTHING.
dont know wat e fark is wrong with some of e guys nowadays. super AI GONG NAI.
seriously hate them. THINGS THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THEM AND THEY JUST WANNA COMMENT AND DESTROY UR DAY, MAKE YOU EMBARRASSED.
omg. nothing better to do. they should just die and help e world to be a better place.

its a bad ending. but i feel better that i say it out. lol
anyways thats about it.

byebye
guilty day

TIRED OF EVERYTHING

im on diet.
im so sick of FRUITS, PLAIN SOUP, WATER, MILK, YOGURT.
emotions is taking over me.


hate school.
hate project.
hate to stop myself from going out because of project.
hate to force myself to do project.
hate to wake up early for project.

hate to have flu.
hate to have cough.
hate to have period.

hate to be hungry.
hate to smell sweets stuff.
hate to see people eat.
hate to work out.

hate to transfer from mrt to bus or bus to mrt. or bus to bus.
hate to pay when taking cab.
hate to stuck in heavy rain n cab is no where to be found.

hate it that e oct mth is not over yet.
hate it when there is more receipt than money in my wallet.
hate some of my friends that cares about themselves.

hate it when e library's aircon is so cold.
hate it when i smell smoker's toxic air.

hate it rain when im playing tennis with my friends.
hate wet shoes.
hate e management office for not unlocking e tennis court when i need to use.
hate community center for not having online booking for badminton court.

lol.
thats about it.
feels good.
haha.

byebye
sick day.

Wake me up

hihi.

this few days im so lazy in school.
i drag myself almost everyday to school.
realli hate going to school now.
i guess wat siti say is right.. sch holiday should be longer..
so long that we r sick of it.. n want to go school n study.
then we will produce good work.
but i guess life is too short for us to waste time like that.
sigh.
struggling to force myself to do my project. seriously.
haha

last weekend was quite fun.
friday i played badminton with my cousins n my brother.
play till i got muscle cramSsss all over... :( zzz

sat i went to meet up with skye in e evening at west coast park to catch up.
nice weather.. :) wanted to do our project,
but in e end..we were shopping for online clothes..
haha but i enjoyed myself..
but i think i will die when i know how much i spent in e online shop. i think over $150 already.
shit man. im so gonna be dead.

then sunday is about me n linna.
aww..haha..
she pick me up n we went far east to shop for HER clothes.
it was a torture.. because i didnt buy due to e online shopping i did e day before. sigh.
after that we had lunch n continue to shop.. we were at fareast e whole day..zzzzz
im feel sad for e guys that need to accompany their gf to shop for clothes.
i totally understand how you feel. lol.
GIRLS STOP ASKING UR BF TO SHOP WITH YOU! GIVE HIM A BREAK!
hahaha..
anyways wanted to catch a movie but too late, n there is not much movie to watch too.
so after that we went to play badminton at bt timah cc. near my hs.
super funny. we couldnt stop laughing during e game, then very xing ku when playing..
haha. realli funny then took pictures too.
then we chill at e hawker centre nearby waiting for her bf's call.
chit chat..laugh..gossip...haha. =p

n today...MONDAY BLUES..
zzzzzzzzzz

hope tml will be a better day.
thats all i guess. i will upload e photos of me n linna soon!
stay tune!
haha.

i have alot of flaws.
my low self esteem is taking over me again..
just hoping time can heal everything.

byebye
lazy day

Nothing Last Forever

Hello!
hmm. very tired this week!!
was sick. had flu and sore throat.
All because of the IMH JOB!!.
haha i helped my friend in a event that she is working on..
she needs help, so me and yongliang went to help her.
SAI GANG all e way.. preparing e food..paste papers...bring boxes of water here and there..
prepare rooms..on top of that..we are in high heels..
omg..blister all e way..
FAINT!
perspire every single day..every single min. haha
but it was fun working together with ur friends.
haha we laughed alot. enjoyed it!!

IMH wasnt that bad..sometime they will approach u..wanna shake hand with u n stuff..
but i think is ok la.. just abit scary.
hahaha.
and we had promised linna to help her on a event that is this coming sun and mon too.
so i will need to skip sch on e first day!.
never mind. i predict there will be drama on teachers..
i dont wanna see drama too. Sick of it.

hmm.. this holiday was useless..did nothing productive.
but very fun.. i went prawning..celebrate my birthday..F1 race..work..shop..went dinner with my family.. aww..
i had enough fun. so im gonna work hard for e next project.
hahaa YooHoo..~!!

im not sure of wat im doing now..
im afraid of wat people will think..
i guess i will wait a little longer..
and get more confident..
before i move on..

people change.. people gets bored of old stuff..
thats just the way it goes..
it's e end and so get over it.
we shall cherish the people and things around us..
before it leave us again...

byebye
sleepy day

CRAZY NIGHT

omgomgomgomg!!
i went dbl O on tue.
it was fun..
drank alot..
super high..
play games..
and....
and...
one more thing..
that im not gonna tell u ...
haha!!
but i enjoy myself with my gfs celebrating with me. im realli happi
:D

is my first time being drunk.
and is not as bad as i think it would be.
at least im not like stacy. haha!!
ping ping pong pong. :x

being drunk is like..
u know wat u doing somehow..
and you know wat is happening..
but everything is moving..
like..side to side. LOL
AND IT GIVES U HEADACHE.
then u dont have strength!? haha
to walk properly..
but i just know that i can forget everything like being awkward and stuff..
and just enjoy myself.
thats y im so high.
but i remember i play pool before we left. haha! :)
i was ok when we were leaving but when i got home on my bed i cant sleep at all,
i dont really remember how i feel
but all i know is.. i roll back n fore on my bed i just keep rolling.
i think i feel realli uncomfortable.
hope someone is there to accompany me. but is ok.
i still get to sleep in e end like 8 plus?

BUT!!
after that day when i realli wake up n think about it.
i can see flashes of ugly side of me in e club in my mind.
O.M.G
faint.
n some of my pictures they took
OMG. FAINT.
DAMN UGLY TO E MAX!!.
hahahaha.
OMG.
i dont know wat to say other than OMG..
hahah.
i will never let it happen again.
faint.

i just wishes i can forget about this quickly, and only remember e good stuff.
haha!.
but i realli thanks my gfs who is there for me when im tipsy and celebrate with me..
even though some of them had some problem at home and their bf and stuff....lol
thanks a million!
and some of e guys that help me to be conscious again!
LOL

overall i had fun. :)
thanks ppl.
love u lots!
cheers!

suppose to celebrate my birthday with my sec sch friends but..
i dont know all of them is busy and all other excuse.
i dont know wat to say. forget it.

byebye
suppressing day

PARTY TIME!!!! YOOHOO~!!

HELLO PEOPLE!!.
ATTENTION PLZ:
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!.
omgomgomgomg!!!
hahahaha.
super fast!! time flies!!!

next wed is my birthday!!.
i havent really plan, but with e help of my friends i have a party!
hahah!.
monday im going out with my poly friends for dinner,
coz siti is not free on wed. hari raya for her.

then wed im going to have dinner and club at double o with my gfs and alot of other people!!
i hope its gonna be a great night.
i hope i will be super high and enjoy my day.
yea. MY day.
haha.

then tue? maybe with my sec sch friend.
but havent realli decide where to go yet. they are kinda busy i guess.
im realli excited now.
i didnt know it is next wed until this wed.

i went my friend's birthday chalet this weekdays.
it was fun. we played cards and games and play alot alot of badminton!. hahaha.
half my body aching after e chalet. then we gossip quite alot too.
get to know more ppl. :) yea~

then this weekends i went out with yongliang, linna, meiyu and kc for dinner
chill out abit..
gossip abit..
haha. it was nice to meet up with them.
after dinner, yongliang have to go meet up with e guys
so we girls went to watch midnight movie: mamamia. not bad.
then we were tired after e movie so we went home instead of meeting e guys.

yesterday night i went to watch e F1 race with my family..
near my bro office place at one raffles link.
IS CRAZY!! DAMN COOL!! LOVE LOVE IT!.
hahaha. they actually had a black sheet to block us from seeing e race,
but when e race start!! e sound is crazy!! and everyone go crazy and rip of e black sheet down!
haha and e people beside us use nail clipper to cut of e sheet. omg.
IS CRAZY. but thanks to them we get to see e race. omg.
e atmosphere were super good. e sound and e race. omg.
we were standing near e turn so e they will slow down abit and we can see racer.
damn cool. e kart are all damn polished, damn handsome.
OMG. but we only watched while like, 20 mins?
then we went to eat bak kut teh.

then after that i went to meet up with violet, stacy, phan they all
to watch another movie call my best friend's girl.
funny show, but is quite similar to e movie, The Hitch.

thats all i guess. suppose to go ah hui hs to play cards or mahjong. but i think got enough people.
so i decided to stay at home. coz is at hougang, quite far.
today im gonna go my aunt place to watch F1 and have a little party.
haha but..
super sad. Alonso is out. SOB!.
never mind. sigh.

tml im going out with meiyu to shop abit then meet up with siti and joycelyn.
i love every single day these two weeks!
see ya on my birthday people!!
IS CRAZY!! HAHA.

byebye
crazy day

Hard to get.

hello people!!
my advance driving is on thur!! omg.
scared. havent study yet.

this week is a boring week.
nothing much happen.
slowly building up my men's online shop.
havent choose a name yet. thought of some but it sound too gay-ish.
hahaha.
other then that. i made tiramisu today.
IS A FAILURE!!
faint.
gonna try again tml!.
idiot.

anyway some of my gfs ask me whether i wanna go clubbing tml.
i feel like.. but most of e girls i dont realli know.
so im afraid i would be extra or something.
i think i have to be almost drunk to meet them.
hahah! then maybe i could care less and enjoy more.
i realli wanna go clubbing!!
yoohoo!

my friends is having a chalet next week.
ITS PARTY TIME!!
haha so long never meet up with my gfs.
miss them lots!!
haha. there is mahjong, blackjack, wed maybe clubbing its ladies night!!
woohoo!.
is that heaven?! hahaha
crazy girl.

OMG.
tml is result day.
i was realli excited about it at first, until my last presentation.
which crash me like shit.
omg. faint.
i dont want to see my result.
plus my brother got 3.75.
shit. im lost.
I HATE HIM. *abit
hahaha
is ok. next sem im gonna go crazy.
:)

i really interested in u.
but i dont get the replies and reaction i wan from you.
im disappointed. :(
is ok. i guess u r not e one.
lets hope someone will REPLACE U FAST!!
idiot.

bye bye
clubber-lious

I NEED A MAN

omg.
faint.
i am working on my men's online shop..
and i am worried about the size and stuff. god~
and some of the style. im not sure will guys buy..
faint. i know i can sell e acc. but tshirt~.. i need help.
I NEED A MAN!! faint.

but i will work on it.
toking to some of my guys friends just makes me lose confident in this shop.
i dont know y. thinking of my guys friends just destroy me!!.
god. i need to stay firm.
watever it is.. im gonna make this happen.
maybe it wouldnt work out in e end, but at least i tried wat i wanna do.
yea. im not gonna care wat people thing.
even if i didnt earn much *which im not gonna let that happen.*
i dont care. at least i tried. yea.

alright. i think i can continue working on it.
STAY FIRM. FIND SOLUTION.

other then that. my F1 job is coming up.
but before that i need to go training for one day at some hotel to do BANQUET!!.
YUCKS ..zzz
so troublesome. just to earn that few dollars.
i wanted to quit actually but i didnt.. when i heard we will be serving e VIP..
VIP like...DAVID BECKHAM. SERIOUSLY!!.
SERIOUS VIPssSS!!!
at first when e person say we will see vip that we only see on TV.
i thought is some locals celebrities or some rich business ppl. so i didnt realli care
but it shocked me when i heard DAVID BECKHAM.
i means its not only DB there is still other famous people which i cant remember e names.
im excited!! but that is of course i get to serve at that area.
coz we will be split into the different VIP area.
there are total of 3 VIP area.
i will of course i get to see e racing cars and stuff.
thats y i agree to go for e training.
hope i can handle well during training.
AND I THINK I CAN. hahaha.

and im gonna spend my pay on shopping. B.T.H already.
its been a long time since i shop. saw alot of clothes online. im gonna grab them ALL.

Soo.. cheers to F1 job where i get to see people i dont usually see..
and.. cheers for my oncoming online shopS!
and...cheers to my new closet!!

i think is time to go clubbing too. hearts.

hoho! :x

byebye
super excited

Disappointed

hello!!
today is the last day of my work at science center.
finally!.
dont really like my job.
waste time, boring and tiring.
zzz

but i met people there, they are all nice people.
some cute guys too. hahaha.
saw this guy i kinda like but i dont know..
i guess he is interested in someone else.
haha
never mind.
is realli nice to meet new people. kinda refreshing.
haha!

next week im gonna concentrate on my project and my online shops.
im gonna work extra hard. i hope i dont get lazy and stuff again..
fighting!
haha.

oh, my FTT is coming! i better double check.
i dont wanna missed it again.zz
and the in charge for the F1 job didnt called me..
zzz. im gonna call him on monday.

alot of things not done. worried,
but i will do my best!. hahaha
hope you are doing well too.

:)
byebye.
disappointed day

Miss Independent

hello!
stress.
hahaha

i realli wanna go diving.
but. im tight in cash.
i start work at the science centre already.
so i might have some money next week.
if im going diving. i would use that cash. but wat about my online shops and shopping during holidays?!!
hahah. so sad.
i think i better not go diving... again~.
sigh. is ok i guess.
just concentrate on my online shops.

and i havent start on redo-ing of project.
argh.
im gonna start next week.
next week is all about online shops and studies. yea man.

i just finished watching season one of : The Hills.
u know? is a english tv series shown in mtv channel.
nice show. u can catch it in mtv website!
u get to watch all the seasons!! GOOD
one thing that im sad when im watching, is that, the people in that show are of the same age as me.
damn it?!! same age and they get to buy houses, drive bmw, have internship at teen vogue magazine... etc etc etc~!
is real life for ur info. they do live like that. super cool.
watever. haha

so tiring at work today.
we stand all day long, so to earn that 5.50 per hr paid. fark.
im gonna be team coordinator next year.
im in crowd control now. so boring. just standing around stopping people moving in and out.
argh.
never mind.
its all about the money!
:)

gonna paint my nails and sleep.
have to wake up at 630 tml.
omg.

for money,
cheers.
haha
hope u have a nice day!

byebye
tired day

i believe

hi ppl!
yup is holiday!
i got another job! haha
in IT fair starting this thur.
yea. im working damn hard. haha

anyway today i post to set some goals.
if not i will just watch drama and work everyday until my school starts.
haha you should set some goals too!
lets divide into personal life, studies and work

Studies:
i need to work on my photoshop and sketch up model.( a 3D computer model)
yea. i need to finished up e model and transfer to photoshop to make it nicer.
Actually i already did it in my last presentation before the holiday starts.
but it was not good enough. my computer skills are not as good.
thats wat lecturer say. :(
yea. so i gonna prove them wrong.
i need to do 6 perspective. GOOD ONES.
and im gonna re-organise my panels. make it nice and stunning.
and i need to redo my construction detail.
i can do it.
there is alot to do. but i can do it.
yes.

Work:
im gonna work for e best as i can. and know people and enjoy myself as well. :)
also..hope i can meet some handsome people..
HAHHA.
nonono!! FOCUS.
yea.
after the IT fair job. im gonna use the money to order e guys clothes i wan.
and after i ordered, im gonna start designing the blog.
and once the order is here. i can start selling.
:)
i was thinking whether to get a guy partner to do this online shop with me.
but im not sure. i dont wan to upset myself again. or watever issue that will happen...zzz
i can do it myself.. yes.
i realli hope i can earn some profit.
is not going realli well for my current online shop.
not enough customer. i tried hard. i tried to promote and stuff..but is not enough.
but im not gonna give up.
im going to work hard for my guys online shop
fighting!~

next!

Personal:
hmm...
wat should i set? i dont know..
im not expecting a bf..
im not realli interested in going to a date anymore..
i dont realli wan volume dating (it means to go on date with alot ALOT of guys and hoping or not to find someone special)...
oh no.. im so.. going to be single for life. hahahha
i believe i will meet that special guy someday. where magic happens.
hahaha. smile
anyway
i guess i just wanna spend more time with my family.
love them alot. :)
hugs

oh yea. and im gonna set a target of $30,000 earning for my facebook Texas hold'em poker.
hahahaha.
currently is only $2575.
i can do it!! damn it!!
hahaahaha!!

thats all i guess.
haha
im gonna start all this next mon. :)
two days for me to enjoy and start work on thurs!
going back to watch my movie.
i watched two English tv series call
lipstick jungle and private practise. is good. not bad.
if u like grey anatomy you would like private practise.
now im gonna watch 'because i said so' act by mandy moore and etc.
i know all this show from star world channel in scv.
LOVE IT~!!
chao~

enjoy ur holiday!!
thanks for reading! :)

byebye
Glad day

After Tsunami

hi ppl.
finally all e project and all the tsunami is over.
im very fortunate that im one of e survival. haha
but i m badly wounded.
please donate money for me by visiting:
www.declosetaffair.blogspot.com

hahaha.
phew. everything is over. im glad.
but it was not a good ending.. hai.
disappointed by myself. i promised for e next project im not gonna let this happen.
i promise to four races gods.
please bless me.
thanks you. hahaha
as if they have Internet connection up there can see my blog.
HAHAHA.
lame.

alright. not im gonna concentrate doing my online shop.
im gonna start a guys online shop myself and
continue with my women online shop with my friend.
hope u all can support me!!
greatly appreciated.
haha.

anyways i got two jobs already during this holiday.
one is working at science centre for some robotic competition and another one is selling stuff at F1 race thing. :)
FIGHTING.. and plus my two online shop.

i went to watch two movies after my submission.
Journey to the center of the earth and money no enough.
both is good.
journey to the center of the earth was very dramatic. very creative!! very exciting.
you should go and watch!!.
and money no enough was really touching at the end of the movie..
so sad. i cried.
i will never gonna let my parents suffer like that!!
NEVER!!
i promise to all four races of gods.
haha.

and i going to continue watching drama!! haha
and i found out that yongliang my sec sch friend is watching 'we got married' too!!
after reading my blog.
nice right?!!! hahahaha
all of you should watch seriously!! its nice!!
A!
haha.
now im watching a enlish tv series called Lipstick Jungle.
quite similar to sex and the city. is about this three women. two married and one single.
toking about love and managing both family and work and handling work load and stuff.
if you like sex and e city then u should watch this too!,
but i prefer sex and e city more. hahaha. :)

alrighty im gonna go fishing..prawning..earning money..going pulau ubin and enjoy myself during holiday.
of course i cannot forget undo-ing my project stuff for my portfolio

WEEE!!!
i hope all of you can enjoy urself too!!
play hard!!

byebye
happy day

FightinG!~

hi ppl!
im back!
i just finished making sushi.
hahaha.
yup.
SUSHI.
i just feel like doing it. so i ask my mum to go to e supermarket to get e ingredients.
easy.
the rice is damn nice. haha
i think is quite a success. :)
tml im going to bring some for my gfs.
=)

this week still e same. gonna work on my project!
i already plan out want i need to do for each day so that i will not rush at the very end.
i must push myself. coz i always get lazy and i will try to postpone e stuff i plan.
is always like that. thats wat im feeling now...-.-
thats y im blogging to get me motivated. haha

hmm.. other then project there is another thing that keeps bugging me...
thats is.. going oversea to study.
i really wanna go.
if i need to further my studies it would be in new zealand.
coz there is a school there that is very popular for their landscape architecture course.
but..e problem is money!! TON! TON!! TON!!!! (money in korean)
ARGH..
hai. keeps bugging me until i didnt sleep well today. i dreamt that i cannot go in the end coz of money.
and i got very stressed up. and..
then i woke up.. and i couldnt get back to sleep
keep thinking of the money needed for the oversea studies.

omg.. im got even more stressed up. and i start to believe that i really might have not enough money to go!!
that is like 5:30am -.-
then i took a short 10min nap and i get ready for sch at 700am.
zzzz..-.-

i never thought of things like..having no money to do things i wanna do.
is always about not having enough money but still.. it will pop out somewhere for me. LOL

im worried. i start to ask my course mate for her experience in N.Z during lunch break
she said i need about $180k min. to complete e degree including my living expenses n stuff
im like.. omg.. $180,000?!!
$$$$$$$$$
SCHOOL FEES : $30,000 yearly. which make it $90,000 for whole 3 yrs.
LIVING EXPENSES: $1600 monthly, which make $57,600 for 3yrs
RENTAL FEE: ?! say maybe $550 monthly, which make $19,800
OTHERS: $4000
TOTAL: $ 171,400

FAINT~
how how how!??!
if i were to work for 1 yr before going..
lets say 2000 a mth. wtf?!
only $24,000
FAINT.
thats y im so stress...

i finally have courage to tell my mum about it.
she said need alot of money...then i told her about e 90k school fees..
she was abit stressed too while driving..
but..
she didnt discourage me though.
she say dont know bank can borrow how much and stuff.
then she say i can work for that 1yr first while waiting for e reply from sch. save up some money.
she say about using bank loan first. see how....
she say if i wanna study then study lor..money think about it later.
i feel abit relieved. but upset..
hai..
i dont wan to make my mum suffer...
fark.

never mind.
im abit motivated now with some of my mum support. im going to work harder for her and me.
FIGHTING!~.

sorry that my entry is abit long. haha
r u having problems too?!
i guess everyone at our age is worried about wat they are gonna do after jc or poly..
you also support me ok?!
haha whoever you r.
:) loves.

going back to my layout then planting plan.
aza aza fighting~!

byebye
gladful day

I LIKE IT

I MISSED MY ADVANCE TEST LAST WEEK.
and i have postpone it to 18 sept.
faint.
coz of e singapore flyer.
(one of the activities in SGF conference *singapore garden festival)
..zzz
haha.
and tml is my next followup appointment at NSC.
another $70..hai.
never mind. :)

anyway i have wasted 1 week already.
have i wasted? i dont know. but i did abit...abit of brainstorming.
hope it helps!
haha.
now i need to do my autocad layout.
DAMN LAZY.
shit.
slag for e whole day already.
when i saw my classmate msging me asking me to jia you.
coz she heard that i went west coast to do my layout yesterday.
but i felt very guilty..coz i didnt do much. i did change but it doesnt look good.
hai.
tired of it..
so i went to my aunt place to relax.

COME ON!!
FIGHTING!!~!!

yes.yes.yes..
yes yes yes..
$1500
$1500!!
$1500!!!!
OEI!! DREAMING ARH!
yes yes yes..
sorri toking to myself again..
:x
i need to add oil already.
i have alot of things to do!!
omg. im scare.
this week i cannot be lazy!
full boost!
yea.
aza aza~!

oh ya.
there is a new korean singer that i really like now.
she is called seo in young
she is damn sexy. her body is hot. although she is abit short and skinny but i like.
i know about her from the variety show that i introduce to you guys at the previous entries.
''we just married'' remember?
super nice!! haha
anyways.
she got her new album call ''Elly is Cinderella."
e previous one was called ''Elly is hot''
both album is really nice.
go check it out:
new album.
"i like it" ft crown j
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9x5HA_retXA&feature=related
cinderella
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsuQcDoRwGQ&feature=related

is either you like it or hate it.
:)

alright better hurry on my layout now.
FIGHTING!~!!
$1500.

hope you r doing well!!
fighting too!!
ok?
hahhaah

byebye
faineant day.

The Perfect Cut

hi ppl. :)
these few days nothing much exciting.
now changing abit on my layout plan.
and attending the singapore garden festival talk.
OH YA. and i mistaken my advance test date. is not today but tml.
and i freak out as i thought i will be late.
i rushed to e test room, running. and beg e person to let to take e test like some desperate girl.
but in e end my name was not showed in his list of candidates.
he asked me to double checked. and i found out that is actually tml.
PAISEI TO E MAX!!!!!!
never mind. -.-

during one night, i happened to watch the show: perfect cut, about plastic surgery on channel u.
i m not crazy for that show, but for that episode, i was realli moved by it.

.. its about this guy called skye who is a personal trainer in e gym that is really handsome and built..asking a realli fat, not very pretty but optimistic girl to be his gf.
omg.
and he realli like who she is and not how she look.
im so touched.

however,
whenever they go out on dates, the girl is never happy.
coz of how public look at them and stuff
she feels that she is not good enough for him.
and how she is making him a laughing stock...
man.. super sad. i cried again. :(
i know la..lousy la..but i totally understand how she feel.
its super torturing for her.
aww...
super sad can?.. sobs..
:(

but i doubt there is this kind of guys existing in singapore.
this is wat u hear in reality at our age..
''LOOK LOOK LOOK!!
WAH CHIO BU..
LOOK AT THOSE LEGS..
WAH..HOT HOT!!
WAH..I THINK D CUP ARH OR F?!!..
UP ARH!..
DAMN CHIO SIA.
HENG MEI SIA..''
and after saying that..they will take notice of those girls for sometime..
and ask for their no. if there are opportunity..

-.- sigh.

these is wat i have been hearing and seeing from guys.
of course, when u start asking them.. they will start to say look doesnt matter and all..
BULLSHIT.
hai..
handsome guys will never fall for ugly girls.
it will only happen in drama.
:( sadly but true.
sigh.

however, i believe this type of man will exist when u get older.
when people are more mature.
and started to realise that looks REALLI doesnt matter, is e heart that matters.
haha.
maybe not.. maybe it will turn out worst..
looks doesnt matter, e money in e bank that matters.
shit man.
hahahaha.

lets just dream that 'TRUE LOVE KISSED'
and make us all.. a happier person..
yar?
hahaha.
so sad right.

sorry this post is abit long
hope u enjoy reading.
chao~!

byebye
pleased day

Waiting..

hello.
this week im gonna start doing my project.
gonna Fighting~! again!
haha

as i was searching for some nice designed shelter...
i dont know how i arrived to youtube watching a walk to remember song tracks.
wow.. nice movie.. nice songs..
it been a long time since i listen to it.
but its still as good as i first hear. LOL
seriously..
all e songs are so..crazy in love kind of lyrics..
haha
aww..

i did wondered.. does this type of love existed?
without having some disease or some realli realli sad things..
lol.
coz it always comes with that.
but that wat they call the 'love test' i guess.
you got to go through that..
hahaa.
:p

i dont hope much.
but still there is still a little corner in my heart hoping it does happen to me.
haha.
who doesnt want it?? right?

anyway my fav song: Someday We'll Know
lets all recall back the movie and enjoy the songs...
aww..... haha..
hearts.

Someday we'll know,
If love can move a mountain...
Someday we'll know,
Why the sky is blue...
Someday we'll know.,
Why I wasn't meant for you...

byebye
contented day

REBOOT

hi ppl!
haha.
just feel like posting some of the things that happen today.
i 'saw' both my ex today. sad?
lol
one with his gf.
and another one seen in friendster.
my friend ask me to let him see. so i just show him..
yes. memorises flooded..
sad?
i dont know..
feel abit disappointed of myself.
not attractive enough?
haha.
watever. its over.
=]

anyways today i went to have dinner at bali thai with my brother and mum.
we ordered alot. anyway thats not e main thing.
when we are on e way going to e car...
in e lift there is this stupid RUDE LIKE SHIT AUNTIE
that say so loudly ''EXCUSE ME!!!!''
FARK HER.
HOW DARE SHE TOK TO MY MOTHER LIKE THAT.
SHE WILL DIE TML.
TOO BAD.
i hate her.

anyway i think its been a long time since i question myself about self esteem and confidence.
untill yesterday that jackson brought it up..
haha
i dont dare to face it, i guess.
its a empty shell anyway.
now..
im trying to protect e cover.
so please...please..
anyone..whoever..everyone..
dont force it to break plz..
haha

on sat is my friend birthday...
aww.. i wish i have money.
never mind.
dont think so much..
dont get stress up so much things.
lol.
FIGHTING.
oh ya.
im going to start doing my project next week.
not everyday is sunday~..zzz
haha.
aza aza

i just put a song in my blog!!
is it nice? is from the drama that i am watching now.
i love the song.
hope u enjoyed it too. :)

FINALLY MEET MY BABY:
http://www.montblanc.com/products/diamondjewellerycollection.php#
Montblanc 4810 ring...
ring in white gold and diamond...
hearts~
lol. faint.

sleep early!

byebye
just another day day