FightinG!~

hi ppl!
im back!
i just finished making sushi.
hahaha.
yup.
SUSHI.
i just feel like doing it. so i ask my mum to go to e supermarket to get e ingredients.
easy.
the rice is damn nice. haha
i think is quite a success. :)
tml im going to bring some for my gfs.
=)

this week still e same. gonna work on my project!
i already plan out want i need to do for each day so that i will not rush at the very end.
i must push myself. coz i always get lazy and i will try to postpone e stuff i plan.
is always like that. thats wat im feeling now...-.-
thats y im blogging to get me motivated. haha

hmm.. other then project there is another thing that keeps bugging me...
thats is.. going oversea to study.
i really wanna go.
if i need to further my studies it would be in new zealand.
coz there is a school there that is very popular for their landscape architecture course.
but..e problem is money!! TON! TON!! TON!!!! (money in korean)
ARGH..
hai. keeps bugging me until i didnt sleep well today. i dreamt that i cannot go in the end coz of money.
and i got very stressed up. and..
then i woke up.. and i couldnt get back to sleep
keep thinking of the money needed for the oversea studies.

omg.. im got even more stressed up. and i start to believe that i really might have not enough money to go!!
that is like 5:30am -.-
then i took a short 10min nap and i get ready for sch at 700am.
zzzz..-.-

i never thought of things like..having no money to do things i wanna do.
is always about not having enough money but still.. it will pop out somewhere for me. LOL

im worried. i start to ask my course mate for her experience in N.Z during lunch break
she said i need about $180k min. to complete e degree including my living expenses n stuff
im like.. omg.. $180,000?!!
$$$$$$$$$
SCHOOL FEES : $30,000 yearly. which make it $90,000 for whole 3 yrs.
LIVING EXPENSES: $1600 monthly, which make $57,600 for 3yrs
RENTAL FEE: ?! say maybe $550 monthly, which make $19,800
OTHERS: $4000
TOTAL: $ 171,400

FAINT~
how how how!??!
if i were to work for 1 yr before going..
lets say 2000 a mth. wtf?!
only $24,000
FAINT.
thats y im so stress...

i finally have courage to tell my mum about it.
she said need alot of money...then i told her about e 90k school fees..
she was abit stressed too while driving..
but..
she didnt discourage me though.
she say dont know bank can borrow how much and stuff.
then she say i can work for that 1yr first while waiting for e reply from sch. save up some money.
she say about using bank loan first. see how....
she say if i wanna study then study lor..money think about it later.
i feel abit relieved. but upset..
hai..
i dont wan to make my mum suffer...
fark.

never mind.
im abit motivated now with some of my mum support. im going to work harder for her and me.
FIGHTING!~.

sorry that my entry is abit long. haha
r u having problems too?!
i guess everyone at our age is worried about wat they are gonna do after jc or poly..
you also support me ok?!
haha whoever you r.
:) loves.

going back to my layout then planting plan.
aza aza fighting~!

byebye
gladful day