Hard to get.

hello people!!
my advance driving is on thur!! omg.
scared. havent study yet.

this week is a boring week.
nothing much happen.
slowly building up my men's online shop.
havent choose a name yet. thought of some but it sound too gay-ish.
hahaha.
other then that. i made tiramisu today.
IS A FAILURE!!
faint.
gonna try again tml!.
idiot.

anyway some of my gfs ask me whether i wanna go clubbing tml.
i feel like.. but most of e girls i dont realli know.
so im afraid i would be extra or something.
i think i have to be almost drunk to meet them.
hahah! then maybe i could care less and enjoy more.
i realli wanna go clubbing!!
yoohoo!

my friends is having a chalet next week.
ITS PARTY TIME!!
haha so long never meet up with my gfs.
miss them lots!!
haha. there is mahjong, blackjack, wed maybe clubbing its ladies night!!
woohoo!.
is that heaven?! hahaha
crazy girl.

OMG.
tml is result day.
i was realli excited about it at first, until my last presentation.
which crash me like shit.
omg. faint.
i dont want to see my result.
plus my brother got 3.75.
shit. im lost.
I HATE HIM. *abit
hahaha
is ok. next sem im gonna go crazy.
:)

i really interested in u.
but i dont get the replies and reaction i wan from you.
im disappointed. :(
is ok. i guess u r not e one.
lets hope someone will REPLACE U FAST!!
idiot.

bye bye
clubber-lious

I NEED A MAN

omg.
faint.
i am working on my men's online shop..
and i am worried about the size and stuff. god~
and some of the style. im not sure will guys buy..
faint. i know i can sell e acc. but tshirt~.. i need help.
I NEED A MAN!! faint.

but i will work on it.
toking to some of my guys friends just makes me lose confident in this shop.
i dont know y. thinking of my guys friends just destroy me!!.
god. i need to stay firm.
watever it is.. im gonna make this happen.
maybe it wouldnt work out in e end, but at least i tried wat i wanna do.
yea. im not gonna care wat people thing.
even if i didnt earn much *which im not gonna let that happen.*
i dont care. at least i tried. yea.

alright. i think i can continue working on it.
STAY FIRM. FIND SOLUTION.

other then that. my F1 job is coming up.
but before that i need to go training for one day at some hotel to do BANQUET!!.
YUCKS ..zzz
so troublesome. just to earn that few dollars.
i wanted to quit actually but i didnt.. when i heard we will be serving e VIP..
VIP like...DAVID BECKHAM. SERIOUSLY!!.
SERIOUS VIPssSS!!!
at first when e person say we will see vip that we only see on TV.
i thought is some locals celebrities or some rich business ppl. so i didnt realli care
but it shocked me when i heard DAVID BECKHAM.
i means its not only DB there is still other famous people which i cant remember e names.
im excited!! but that is of course i get to serve at that area.
coz we will be split into the different VIP area.
there are total of 3 VIP area.
i will of course i get to see e racing cars and stuff.
thats y i agree to go for e training.
hope i can handle well during training.
AND I THINK I CAN. hahaha.

and im gonna spend my pay on shopping. B.T.H already.
its been a long time since i shop. saw alot of clothes online. im gonna grab them ALL.

Soo.. cheers to F1 job where i get to see people i dont usually see..
and.. cheers for my oncoming online shopS!
and...cheers to my new closet!!

i think is time to go clubbing too. hearts.

hoho! :x

byebye
super excited

Disappointed

hello!!
today is the last day of my work at science center.
finally!.
dont really like my job.
waste time, boring and tiring.
zzz

but i met people there, they are all nice people.
some cute guys too. hahaha.
saw this guy i kinda like but i dont know..
i guess he is interested in someone else.
haha
never mind.
is realli nice to meet new people. kinda refreshing.
haha!

next week im gonna concentrate on my project and my online shops.
im gonna work extra hard. i hope i dont get lazy and stuff again..
fighting!
haha.

oh, my FTT is coming! i better double check.
i dont wanna missed it again.zz
and the in charge for the F1 job didnt called me..
zzz. im gonna call him on monday.

alot of things not done. worried,
but i will do my best!. hahaha
hope you are doing well too.

:)
byebye.
disappointed day

Miss Independent

hello!
stress.
hahaha

i realli wanna go diving.
but. im tight in cash.
i start work at the science centre already.
so i might have some money next week.
if im going diving. i would use that cash. but wat about my online shops and shopping during holidays?!!
hahah. so sad.
i think i better not go diving... again~.
sigh. is ok i guess.
just concentrate on my online shops.

and i havent start on redo-ing of project.
argh.
im gonna start next week.
next week is all about online shops and studies. yea man.

i just finished watching season one of : The Hills.
u know? is a english tv series shown in mtv channel.
nice show. u can catch it in mtv website!
u get to watch all the seasons!! GOOD
one thing that im sad when im watching, is that, the people in that show are of the same age as me.
damn it?!! same age and they get to buy houses, drive bmw, have internship at teen vogue magazine... etc etc etc~!
is real life for ur info. they do live like that. super cool.
watever. haha

so tiring at work today.
we stand all day long, so to earn that 5.50 per hr paid. fark.
im gonna be team coordinator next year.
im in crowd control now. so boring. just standing around stopping people moving in and out.
argh.
never mind.
its all about the money!
:)

gonna paint my nails and sleep.
have to wake up at 630 tml.
omg.

for money,
cheers.
haha
hope u have a nice day!

byebye
tired day

i believe

hi ppl!
yup is holiday!
i got another job! haha
in IT fair starting this thur.
yea. im working damn hard. haha

anyway today i post to set some goals.
if not i will just watch drama and work everyday until my school starts.
haha you should set some goals too!
lets divide into personal life, studies and work

Studies:
i need to work on my photoshop and sketch up model.( a 3D computer model)
yea. i need to finished up e model and transfer to photoshop to make it nicer.
Actually i already did it in my last presentation before the holiday starts.
but it was not good enough. my computer skills are not as good.
thats wat lecturer say. :(
yea. so i gonna prove them wrong.
i need to do 6 perspective. GOOD ONES.
and im gonna re-organise my panels. make it nice and stunning.
and i need to redo my construction detail.
i can do it.
there is alot to do. but i can do it.
yes.

Work:
im gonna work for e best as i can. and know people and enjoy myself as well. :)
also..hope i can meet some handsome people..
HAHHA.
nonono!! FOCUS.
yea.
after the IT fair job. im gonna use the money to order e guys clothes i wan.
and after i ordered, im gonna start designing the blog.
and once the order is here. i can start selling.
:)
i was thinking whether to get a guy partner to do this online shop with me.
but im not sure. i dont wan to upset myself again. or watever issue that will happen...zzz
i can do it myself.. yes.
i realli hope i can earn some profit.
is not going realli well for my current online shop.
not enough customer. i tried hard. i tried to promote and stuff..but is not enough.
but im not gonna give up.
im going to work hard for my guys online shop
fighting!~

next!

Personal:
hmm...
wat should i set? i dont know..
im not expecting a bf..
im not realli interested in going to a date anymore..
i dont realli wan volume dating (it means to go on date with alot ALOT of guys and hoping or not to find someone special)...
oh no.. im so.. going to be single for life. hahahha
i believe i will meet that special guy someday. where magic happens.
hahaha. smile
anyway
i guess i just wanna spend more time with my family.
love them alot. :)
hugs

oh yea. and im gonna set a target of $30,000 earning for my facebook Texas hold'em poker.
hahahaha.
currently is only $2575.
i can do it!! damn it!!
hahaahaha!!

thats all i guess.
haha
im gonna start all this next mon. :)
two days for me to enjoy and start work on thurs!
going back to watch my movie.
i watched two English tv series call
lipstick jungle and private practise. is good. not bad.
if u like grey anatomy you would like private practise.
now im gonna watch 'because i said so' act by mandy moore and etc.
i know all this show from star world channel in scv.
LOVE IT~!!
chao~

enjoy ur holiday!!
thanks for reading! :)

byebye
Glad day

After Tsunami

hi ppl.
finally all e project and all the tsunami is over.
im very fortunate that im one of e survival. haha
but i m badly wounded.
please donate money for me by visiting:
www.declosetaffair.blogspot.com

hahaha.
phew. everything is over. im glad.
but it was not a good ending.. hai.
disappointed by myself. i promised for e next project im not gonna let this happen.
i promise to four races gods.
please bless me.
thanks you. hahaha
as if they have Internet connection up there can see my blog.
HAHAHA.
lame.

alright. not im gonna concentrate doing my online shop.
im gonna start a guys online shop myself and
continue with my women online shop with my friend.
hope u all can support me!!
greatly appreciated.
haha.

anyways i got two jobs already during this holiday.
one is working at science centre for some robotic competition and another one is selling stuff at F1 race thing. :)
FIGHTING.. and plus my two online shop.

i went to watch two movies after my submission.
Journey to the center of the earth and money no enough.
both is good.
journey to the center of the earth was very dramatic. very creative!! very exciting.
you should go and watch!!.
and money no enough was really touching at the end of the movie..
so sad. i cried.
i will never gonna let my parents suffer like that!!
NEVER!!
i promise to all four races of gods.
haha.

and i going to continue watching drama!! haha
and i found out that yongliang my sec sch friend is watching 'we got married' too!!
after reading my blog.
nice right?!!! hahahaha
all of you should watch seriously!! its nice!!
A!
haha.
now im watching a enlish tv series called Lipstick Jungle.
quite similar to sex and the city. is about this three women. two married and one single.
toking about love and managing both family and work and handling work load and stuff.
if you like sex and e city then u should watch this too!,
but i prefer sex and e city more. hahaha. :)

alrighty im gonna go fishing..prawning..earning money..going pulau ubin and enjoy myself during holiday.
of course i cannot forget undo-ing my project stuff for my portfolio

WEEE!!!
i hope all of you can enjoy urself too!!
play hard!!

byebye
happy day

FightinG!~

hi ppl!
im back!
i just finished making sushi.
hahaha.
yup.
SUSHI.
i just feel like doing it. so i ask my mum to go to e supermarket to get e ingredients.
easy.
the rice is damn nice. haha
i think is quite a success. :)
tml im going to bring some for my gfs.
=)

this week still e same. gonna work on my project!
i already plan out want i need to do for each day so that i will not rush at the very end.
i must push myself. coz i always get lazy and i will try to postpone e stuff i plan.
is always like that. thats wat im feeling now...-.-
thats y im blogging to get me motivated. haha

hmm.. other then project there is another thing that keeps bugging me...
thats is.. going oversea to study.
i really wanna go.
if i need to further my studies it would be in new zealand.
coz there is a school there that is very popular for their landscape architecture course.
but..e problem is money!! TON! TON!! TON!!!! (money in korean)
ARGH..
hai. keeps bugging me until i didnt sleep well today. i dreamt that i cannot go in the end coz of money.
and i got very stressed up. and..
then i woke up.. and i couldnt get back to sleep
keep thinking of the money needed for the oversea studies.

omg.. im got even more stressed up. and i start to believe that i really might have not enough money to go!!
that is like 5:30am -.-
then i took a short 10min nap and i get ready for sch at 700am.
zzzz..-.-

i never thought of things like..having no money to do things i wanna do.
is always about not having enough money but still.. it will pop out somewhere for me. LOL

im worried. i start to ask my course mate for her experience in N.Z during lunch break
she said i need about $180k min. to complete e degree including my living expenses n stuff
im like.. omg.. $180,000?!!
$$$$$$$$$
SCHOOL FEES : $30,000 yearly. which make it $90,000 for whole 3 yrs.
LIVING EXPENSES: $1600 monthly, which make $57,600 for 3yrs
RENTAL FEE: ?! say maybe $550 monthly, which make $19,800
OTHERS: $4000
TOTAL: $ 171,400

FAINT~
how how how!??!
if i were to work for 1 yr before going..
lets say 2000 a mth. wtf?!
only $24,000
FAINT.
thats y im so stress...

i finally have courage to tell my mum about it.
she said need alot of money...then i told her about e 90k school fees..
she was abit stressed too while driving..
but..
she didnt discourage me though.
she say dont know bank can borrow how much and stuff.
then she say i can work for that 1yr first while waiting for e reply from sch. save up some money.
she say about using bank loan first. see how....
she say if i wanna study then study lor..money think about it later.
i feel abit relieved. but upset..
hai..
i dont wan to make my mum suffer...
fark.

never mind.
im abit motivated now with some of my mum support. im going to work harder for her and me.
FIGHTING!~.

sorry that my entry is abit long. haha
r u having problems too?!
i guess everyone at our age is worried about wat they are gonna do after jc or poly..
you also support me ok?!
haha whoever you r.
:) loves.

going back to my layout then planting plan.
aza aza fighting~!

byebye
gladful day