i believe

hi ppl!
yup is holiday!
i got another job! haha
in IT fair starting this thur.
yea. im working damn hard. haha

anyway today i post to set some goals.
if not i will just watch drama and work everyday until my school starts.
haha you should set some goals too!
lets divide into personal life, studies and work

Studies:
i need to work on my photoshop and sketch up model.( a 3D computer model)
yea. i need to finished up e model and transfer to photoshop to make it nicer.
Actually i already did it in my last presentation before the holiday starts.
but it was not good enough. my computer skills are not as good.
thats wat lecturer say. :(
yea. so i gonna prove them wrong.
i need to do 6 perspective. GOOD ONES.
and im gonna re-organise my panels. make it nice and stunning.
and i need to redo my construction detail.
i can do it.
there is alot to do. but i can do it.
yes.

Work:
im gonna work for e best as i can. and know people and enjoy myself as well. :)
also..hope i can meet some handsome people..
HAHHA.
nonono!! FOCUS.
yea.
after the IT fair job. im gonna use the money to order e guys clothes i wan.
and after i ordered, im gonna start designing the blog.
and once the order is here. i can start selling.
:)
i was thinking whether to get a guy partner to do this online shop with me.
but im not sure. i dont wan to upset myself again. or watever issue that will happen...zzz
i can do it myself.. yes.
i realli hope i can earn some profit.
is not going realli well for my current online shop.
not enough customer. i tried hard. i tried to promote and stuff..but is not enough.
but im not gonna give up.
im going to work hard for my guys online shop
fighting!~

next!

Personal:
hmm...
wat should i set? i dont know..
im not expecting a bf..
im not realli interested in going to a date anymore..
i dont realli wan volume dating (it means to go on date with alot ALOT of guys and hoping or not to find someone special)...
oh no.. im so.. going to be single for life. hahahha
i believe i will meet that special guy someday. where magic happens.
hahaha. smile
anyway
i guess i just wanna spend more time with my family.
love them alot. :)
hugs

oh yea. and im gonna set a target of $30,000 earning for my facebook Texas hold'em poker.
hahahaha.
currently is only $2575.
i can do it!! damn it!!
hahaahaha!!

thats all i guess.
haha
im gonna start all this next mon. :)
two days for me to enjoy and start work on thurs!
going back to watch my movie.
i watched two English tv series call
lipstick jungle and private practise. is good. not bad.
if u like grey anatomy you would like private practise.
now im gonna watch 'because i said so' act by mandy moore and etc.
i know all this show from star world channel in scv.
LOVE IT~!!
chao~

enjoy ur holiday!!
thanks for reading! :)

byebye
Glad day

After Tsunami

hi ppl.
finally all e project and all the tsunami is over.
im very fortunate that im one of e survival. haha
but i m badly wounded.
please donate money for me by visiting:
www.declosetaffair.blogspot.com

hahaha.
phew. everything is over. im glad.
but it was not a good ending.. hai.
disappointed by myself. i promised for e next project im not gonna let this happen.
i promise to four races gods.
please bless me.
thanks you. hahaha
as if they have Internet connection up there can see my blog.
HAHAHA.
lame.

alright. not im gonna concentrate doing my online shop.
im gonna start a guys online shop myself and
continue with my women online shop with my friend.
hope u all can support me!!
greatly appreciated.
haha.

anyways i got two jobs already during this holiday.
one is working at science centre for some robotic competition and another one is selling stuff at F1 race thing. :)
FIGHTING.. and plus my two online shop.

i went to watch two movies after my submission.
Journey to the center of the earth and money no enough.
both is good.
journey to the center of the earth was very dramatic. very creative!! very exciting.
you should go and watch!!.
and money no enough was really touching at the end of the movie..
so sad. i cried.
i will never gonna let my parents suffer like that!!
NEVER!!
i promise to all four races of gods.
haha.

and i going to continue watching drama!! haha
and i found out that yongliang my sec sch friend is watching 'we got married' too!!
after reading my blog.
nice right?!!! hahahaha
all of you should watch seriously!! its nice!!
A!
haha.
now im watching a enlish tv series called Lipstick Jungle.
quite similar to sex and the city. is about this three women. two married and one single.
toking about love and managing both family and work and handling work load and stuff.
if you like sex and e city then u should watch this too!,
but i prefer sex and e city more. hahaha. :)

alrighty im gonna go fishing..prawning..earning money..going pulau ubin and enjoy myself during holiday.
of course i cannot forget undo-ing my project stuff for my portfolio

WEEE!!!
i hope all of you can enjoy urself too!!
play hard!!

byebye
happy day

FightinG!~

hi ppl!
im back!
i just finished making sushi.
hahaha.
yup.
SUSHI.
i just feel like doing it. so i ask my mum to go to e supermarket to get e ingredients.
easy.
the rice is damn nice. haha
i think is quite a success. :)
tml im going to bring some for my gfs.
=)

this week still e same. gonna work on my project!
i already plan out want i need to do for each day so that i will not rush at the very end.
i must push myself. coz i always get lazy and i will try to postpone e stuff i plan.
is always like that. thats wat im feeling now...-.-
thats y im blogging to get me motivated. haha

hmm.. other then project there is another thing that keeps bugging me...
thats is.. going oversea to study.
i really wanna go.
if i need to further my studies it would be in new zealand.
coz there is a school there that is very popular for their landscape architecture course.
but..e problem is money!! TON! TON!! TON!!!! (money in korean)
ARGH..
hai. keeps bugging me until i didnt sleep well today. i dreamt that i cannot go in the end coz of money.
and i got very stressed up. and..
then i woke up.. and i couldnt get back to sleep
keep thinking of the money needed for the oversea studies.

omg.. im got even more stressed up. and i start to believe that i really might have not enough money to go!!
that is like 5:30am -.-
then i took a short 10min nap and i get ready for sch at 700am.
zzzz..-.-

i never thought of things like..having no money to do things i wanna do.
is always about not having enough money but still.. it will pop out somewhere for me. LOL

im worried. i start to ask my course mate for her experience in N.Z during lunch break
she said i need about $180k min. to complete e degree including my living expenses n stuff
im like.. omg.. $180,000?!!
$$$$$$$$$
SCHOOL FEES : $30,000 yearly. which make it $90,000 for whole 3 yrs.
LIVING EXPENSES: $1600 monthly, which make $57,600 for 3yrs
RENTAL FEE: ?! say maybe $550 monthly, which make $19,800
OTHERS: $4000
TOTAL: $ 171,400

FAINT~
how how how!??!
if i were to work for 1 yr before going..
lets say 2000 a mth. wtf?!
only $24,000
FAINT.
thats y im so stress...

i finally have courage to tell my mum about it.
she said need alot of money...then i told her about e 90k school fees..
she was abit stressed too while driving..
but..
she didnt discourage me though.
she say dont know bank can borrow how much and stuff.
then she say i can work for that 1yr first while waiting for e reply from sch. save up some money.
she say about using bank loan first. see how....
she say if i wanna study then study lor..money think about it later.
i feel abit relieved. but upset..
hai..
i dont wan to make my mum suffer...
fark.

never mind.
im abit motivated now with some of my mum support. im going to work harder for her and me.
FIGHTING!~.

sorry that my entry is abit long. haha
r u having problems too?!
i guess everyone at our age is worried about wat they are gonna do after jc or poly..
you also support me ok?!
haha whoever you r.
:) loves.

going back to my layout then planting plan.
aza aza fighting~!

byebye
gladful day

I LIKE IT

I MISSED MY ADVANCE TEST LAST WEEK.
and i have postpone it to 18 sept.
faint.
coz of e singapore flyer.
(one of the activities in SGF conference *singapore garden festival)
..zzz
haha.
and tml is my next followup appointment at NSC.
another $70..hai.
never mind. :)

anyway i have wasted 1 week already.
have i wasted? i dont know. but i did abit...abit of brainstorming.
hope it helps!
haha.
now i need to do my autocad layout.
DAMN LAZY.
shit.
slag for e whole day already.
when i saw my classmate msging me asking me to jia you.
coz she heard that i went west coast to do my layout yesterday.
but i felt very guilty..coz i didnt do much. i did change but it doesnt look good.
hai.
tired of it..
so i went to my aunt place to relax.

COME ON!!
FIGHTING!!~!!

yes.yes.yes..
yes yes yes..
$1500
$1500!!
$1500!!!!
OEI!! DREAMING ARH!
yes yes yes..
sorri toking to myself again..
:x
i need to add oil already.
i have alot of things to do!!
omg. im scare.
this week i cannot be lazy!
full boost!
yea.
aza aza~!

oh ya.
there is a new korean singer that i really like now.
she is called seo in young
she is damn sexy. her body is hot. although she is abit short and skinny but i like.
i know about her from the variety show that i introduce to you guys at the previous entries.
''we just married'' remember?
super nice!! haha
anyways.
she got her new album call ''Elly is Cinderella."
e previous one was called ''Elly is hot''
both album is really nice.
go check it out:
new album.
"i like it" ft crown j
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9x5HA_retXA&feature=related
cinderella
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsuQcDoRwGQ&feature=related

is either you like it or hate it.
:)

alright better hurry on my layout now.
FIGHTING!~!!
$1500.

hope you r doing well!!
fighting too!!
ok?
hahhaah

byebye
faineant day.

The Perfect Cut

hi ppl. :)
these few days nothing much exciting.
now changing abit on my layout plan.
and attending the singapore garden festival talk.
OH YA. and i mistaken my advance test date. is not today but tml.
and i freak out as i thought i will be late.
i rushed to e test room, running. and beg e person to let to take e test like some desperate girl.
but in e end my name was not showed in his list of candidates.
he asked me to double checked. and i found out that is actually tml.
PAISEI TO E MAX!!!!!!
never mind. -.-

during one night, i happened to watch the show: perfect cut, about plastic surgery on channel u.
i m not crazy for that show, but for that episode, i was realli moved by it.

.. its about this guy called skye who is a personal trainer in e gym that is really handsome and built..asking a realli fat, not very pretty but optimistic girl to be his gf.
omg.
and he realli like who she is and not how she look.
im so touched.

however,
whenever they go out on dates, the girl is never happy.
coz of how public look at them and stuff
she feels that she is not good enough for him.
and how she is making him a laughing stock...
man.. super sad. i cried again. :(
i know la..lousy la..but i totally understand how she feel.
its super torturing for her.
aww...
super sad can?.. sobs..
:(

but i doubt there is this kind of guys existing in singapore.
this is wat u hear in reality at our age..
''LOOK LOOK LOOK!!
WAH CHIO BU..
LOOK AT THOSE LEGS..
WAH..HOT HOT!!
WAH..I THINK D CUP ARH OR F?!!..
UP ARH!..
DAMN CHIO SIA.
HENG MEI SIA..''
and after saying that..they will take notice of those girls for sometime..
and ask for their no. if there are opportunity..

-.- sigh.

these is wat i have been hearing and seeing from guys.
of course, when u start asking them.. they will start to say look doesnt matter and all..
BULLSHIT.
hai..
handsome guys will never fall for ugly girls.
it will only happen in drama.
:( sadly but true.
sigh.

however, i believe this type of man will exist when u get older.
when people are more mature.
and started to realise that looks REALLI doesnt matter, is e heart that matters.
haha.
maybe not.. maybe it will turn out worst..
looks doesnt matter, e money in e bank that matters.
shit man.
hahahaha.

lets just dream that 'TRUE LOVE KISSED'
and make us all.. a happier person..
yar?
hahaha.
so sad right.

sorry this post is abit long
hope u enjoy reading.
chao~!

byebye
pleased day

Waiting..

hello.
this week im gonna start doing my project.
gonna Fighting~! again!
haha

as i was searching for some nice designed shelter...
i dont know how i arrived to youtube watching a walk to remember song tracks.
wow.. nice movie.. nice songs..
it been a long time since i listen to it.
but its still as good as i first hear. LOL
seriously..
all e songs are so..crazy in love kind of lyrics..
haha
aww..

i did wondered.. does this type of love existed?
without having some disease or some realli realli sad things..
lol.
coz it always comes with that.
but that wat they call the 'love test' i guess.
you got to go through that..
hahaa.
:p

i dont hope much.
but still there is still a little corner in my heart hoping it does happen to me.
haha.
who doesnt want it?? right?

anyway my fav song: Someday We'll Know
lets all recall back the movie and enjoy the songs...
aww..... haha..
hearts.

Someday we'll know,
If love can move a mountain...
Someday we'll know,
Why the sky is blue...
Someday we'll know.,
Why I wasn't meant for you...

byebye
contented day

REBOOT

hi ppl!
haha.
just feel like posting some of the things that happen today.
i 'saw' both my ex today. sad?
lol
one with his gf.
and another one seen in friendster.
my friend ask me to let him see. so i just show him..
yes. memorises flooded..
sad?
i dont know..
feel abit disappointed of myself.
not attractive enough?
haha.
watever. its over.
=]

anyways today i went to have dinner at bali thai with my brother and mum.
we ordered alot. anyway thats not e main thing.
when we are on e way going to e car...
in e lift there is this stupid RUDE LIKE SHIT AUNTIE
that say so loudly ''EXCUSE ME!!!!''
FARK HER.
HOW DARE SHE TOK TO MY MOTHER LIKE THAT.
SHE WILL DIE TML.
TOO BAD.
i hate her.

anyway i think its been a long time since i question myself about self esteem and confidence.
untill yesterday that jackson brought it up..
haha
i dont dare to face it, i guess.
its a empty shell anyway.
now..
im trying to protect e cover.
so please...please..
anyone..whoever..everyone..
dont force it to break plz..
haha

on sat is my friend birthday...
aww.. i wish i have money.
never mind.
dont think so much..
dont get stress up so much things.
lol.
FIGHTING.
oh ya.
im going to start doing my project next week.
not everyday is sunday~..zzz
haha.
aza aza

i just put a song in my blog!!
is it nice? is from the drama that i am watching now.
i love the song.
hope u enjoyed it too. :)

FINALLY MEET MY BABY:
http://www.montblanc.com/products/diamondjewellerycollection.php#
Montblanc 4810 ring...
ring in white gold and diamond...
hearts~
lol. faint.

sleep early!

byebye
just another day day